Her first trip 👼

Friday to Sunday we have been to our first trip as parents.

we have done earlier trips but this was the first with our baby.

when you travel with baby we have to plan a lot taking care of their every minute thing.

And this time we were travelling to mountain region so we were of thought that if we don’t find any particular thing which might be needed for her then how will be able to manage ??

so I made sure to keep everything handy.

we always believed in “Less Luggage more Comfort “and on every trip we opted for rented two wheeler and tried to cover the selected spots enjoying every moment.

With her we didn’t wanted to take any risk we had to look after her comfort.

so we left from Delhi by car and we had few more bags making sure to put everything needed for her .

From fruits,vegetables to homemade cerelacs so that she don’t get bored of eating same things.

Seriously after becoming parent we can’t pan anything according to our whims and wishes.our plans go according to their schedules.

Their sleeping time ,lunch ,dinner,snacks etc everything goes according to them.

Now we couldn’t leave the room by 8am to move around the place but happens everything at ease now according to their schedule.

Everything changes after you become parent.

Dilemma’s of being a daughter in law

Today I was leaving with my husband to his work city or the city where he works.

My in laws were saddened as well as happy as our daughter is going to stay with dad as well.

But there were tears as well.when a daughter in law stays with in laws they may be poked for some or the other potty issues but when she goes away tears rolls out.why ?

why can’t we stay happily respecting mutually.Here I mean to say mother in law respecting daughter in law as she does to her.

why not she accepted fully instead of partially as equivalent to her husband and sister in law??

when poking happens disturbing her mental peace why does not she move away from the toxic environment?

Doesn’t she deserve to have a happy life with her husband who stays away??

I dont know why I was feeling as if I am hurting everyone by going along with husband ??

Earlier whenever husband went back to his work city no one cried like this but why now ?

I have gone twice with my husband and I was left with the same feeling of hurting others by moving along with him.

Aren’t we Indian girls embedded with such values from our childhood??

why ?

when I have married him then why should I deserve to be staying along with him ?living life with him ? Living small moments with him ?

I am not able to understand anything right now what all sorts of emotions have been going on in my head and heart.

Am I the culprit to be moving away with husband ??

if yes why daughter staying with husband is right and daughter in law with husband hurts ??

There are many why goes on ..

Motherhood Diaries

when my baby sleeps I get the time to analyse the life .

I get the time to think upon life lately and in that my whole time goes off leaving me with the same dilemma and the same chaos in my mind.

Today while reading “Think and Grow Rich” by Napoleon Hill the book surrounds around the idea ,a determinant thought.

In the same way I was looking for an idea around which I can build my career again from scratch.But still clueless

That’s true saying from senior mothers(those who have exper Motherhood before me)that life starts from a scratch again after one becomes a mom.

Being a mom is a full time job but one though keeps on killing me from inside that what will I do after she starts going to school or turns to a manageable age.

Haha I even checked eligibility for various exams for which I may be eligible but in vains as I have crossed that age.

From dreaming to being an IAS to now seeing any job for I must be eligibile haha life shows u everything at once.

Does every mom faces the same dilemma??

will I be loosing interest in every thing about which I have dreamt??

when your Husband is away and he is very busy then how and with whom to share the thoughts??

may be my love for writing comes to my rescue!!

Is that Mom’s dreams go in vain ??

am I a failure ??

Does our Mom’s also faced the same situation??

#motherhood #motherhooddiaries #beingamom #momchild #career #dreamsofamom

A day in my life as a new mom

Getting up along with my natural alarm my daughter at around 7-7:30am.

Finish Her chores within half an hour and the taking up on the duty as a. Daughter in law.

As a Indian daughter in law who stays with her in laws has to do all the taam-jhaar i.e wearing our traditional Rajputi poshak ,bindi,lipstick and bangles before leaving the room.

Handing over baby to either father in law or mother in law and then entering kitchen.

As soon as Indian women enters kitchen they loom with the question of what to be prepared for breakfast and lunch.

Gets free from kitchen by 10-10:30am and then again going back to motherly duties of taking care of her food ,washrooms, bath and other things .

I gets free around 2pm completing all my morning chores.

Again when I try to sleep in the afternoon she gets up and starts playing.

we leave our room by 6pm in the evening and again go for dinner preparation.

This way whole day is gone me wandering around her and her toys !

And That’s Normal

Today went for a dinner with friends I can say colleagues from my previous work place.

And took Tanu my daughter along with me as she might not stay without me with her grand parents.

Init she was playing along with one of my friends daughters.

While playing she suddenly vomited on my friend(a little) as they do after food if we don’t get them do burp.I cleaned it.

As a result that spill left its smell on her clothes although a little bit it was there and I was feeling very inconvenient because of that .

I was thinking the same thing after I came back home as well .

I asked myself am I thinking much ??

Am I a bad mom that I couldn’t make her stay hygienic,neat ??

Is this an awkward situation??

what my friends will be thinking and many such stupid thoughts were coming and going in my mind.

I talked regarding this to my husband who was away from the city today .

He made me to chill and asked not to give much thoughts to such stupid things and it’s absolutely normal when you have a small kids .

You can’t control a 9-10 month baby and can’t ask him/her to behave in a certain manner.

So it’s NORMAL and new mommies don’t need to pay any heed to any such situation and what other’s think and all .

Keep yourself calm and enjoy this phase.

They will grow out of your lap soon.

#normal #baby#motherhood

What after they have gone ?

Pahalgaam attack is seriously a coward attack on tourist who went with lots of hope and dreams to Jammu and Kashmir.

After this attack I seriously couldn’t sleep and had to uninstall my Instagram as I could not see any content related to the incident.I had to call my husband again and again as I couldn’t be at peace.I think many of us had the same feelings ,same thoughts aftermath the attack.

my thoughts wondered around the wife of navy officer Vinay narwal who got married few days back and the couple were in their honeymoon to Kashmir.

many dreams in her eyes and love in their hearts how much they might have a thought about their new life .

Now he has gone but the life will not be same again for her.

somewhere she might be pointed out that she might have convinced him to go for the honeymoon and all .

This Indian soviet still don’t leave any chance to blame the women after her husband is gone.

May be she won’t be accepted by his family and made to responsible for the loss.

Her pain might not be understood and obviously his family’s pain also can be understood by us .its always easier to say !!

लोगों का काम हैं कहना

लोग तो कहेंगे ही

लोगों का काम हैं कहना

पर तू क्या हैं सोचती अपने बारें में

तेरे रोज़ के जो संघर्ष हैं

क्या हर कोई जानता हैं

किन किन हालातो से जूझती हैं तू

क्या यह हर कोई जानता हैं

नहीं यह कोई नहीं जानता

पर मुफ़्तत की सलाह हर कोई देगा

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