Dilemma’s of being a daughter in law

Today I was leaving with my husband to his work city or the city where he works.

My in laws were saddened as well as happy as our daughter is going to stay with dad as well.

But there were tears as well.when a daughter in law stays with in laws they may be poked for some or the other potty issues but when she goes away tears rolls out.why ?

why can’t we stay happily respecting mutually.Here I mean to say mother in law respecting daughter in law as she does to her.

why not she accepted fully instead of partially as equivalent to her husband and sister in law??

when poking happens disturbing her mental peace why does not she move away from the toxic environment?

Doesn’t she deserve to have a happy life with her husband who stays away??

I dont know why I was feeling as if I am hurting everyone by going along with husband ??

Earlier whenever husband went back to his work city no one cried like this but why now ?

I have gone twice with my husband and I was left with the same feeling of hurting others by moving along with him.

Aren’t we Indian girls embedded with such values from our childhood??

why ?

when I have married him then why should I deserve to be staying along with him ?living life with him ? Living small moments with him ?

I am not able to understand anything right now what all sorts of emotions have been going on in my head and heart.

Am I the culprit to be moving away with husband ??

if yes why daughter staying with husband is right and daughter in law with husband hurts ??

There are many why goes on ..

Motherhood Diaries

when my baby sleeps I get the time to analyse the life .

I get the time to think upon life lately and in that my whole time goes off leaving me with the same dilemma and the same chaos in my mind.

Today while reading “Think and Grow Rich” by Napoleon Hill the book surrounds around the idea ,a determinant thought.

In the same way I was looking for an idea around which I can build my career again from scratch.But still clueless

That’s true saying from senior mothers(those who have exper Motherhood before me)that life starts from a scratch again after one becomes a mom.

Being a mom is a full time job but one though keeps on killing me from inside that what will I do after she starts going to school or turns to a manageable age.

Haha I even checked eligibility for various exams for which I may be eligible but in vains as I have crossed that age.

From dreaming to being an IAS to now seeing any job for I must be eligibile haha life shows u everything at once.

Does every mom faces the same dilemma??

will I be loosing interest in every thing about which I have dreamt??

when your Husband is away and he is very busy then how and with whom to share the thoughts??

may be my love for writing comes to my rescue!!

Is that Mom’s dreams go in vain ??

am I a failure ??

Does our Mom’s also faced the same situation??

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A day in my life as a new mom

Getting up along with my natural alarm my daughter at around 7-7:30am.

Finish Her chores within half an hour and the taking up on the duty as a. Daughter in law.

As a Indian daughter in law who stays with her in laws has to do all the taam-jhaar i.e wearing our traditional Rajputi poshak ,bindi,lipstick and bangles before leaving the room.

Handing over baby to either father in law or mother in law and then entering kitchen.

As soon as Indian women enters kitchen they loom with the question of what to be prepared for breakfast and lunch.

Gets free from kitchen by 10-10:30am and then again going back to motherly duties of taking care of her food ,washrooms, bath and other things .

I gets free around 2pm completing all my morning chores.

Again when I try to sleep in the afternoon she gets up and starts playing.

we leave our room by 6pm in the evening and again go for dinner preparation.

This way whole day is gone me wandering around her and her toys !