दुविधा

जाना भी चाहु

पर तुझसे दुर भी न रह पाऊं

कैसी दुविधा हैं यह

वहा रह कर भी

तुझको ही देखना चाहु

कैसी दुविधा हैं यह

होती हूं पास तेरे तो

वहा जाना चाहु

आखिरकार घर हैं मेरा

जहा पली बढ़ी हूं में

पर लगता हैं मेरा कोई घर नहीं

न मैं यहां की हो पाऊं

न वहा की हो पाऊं

समझ नही आता

चाहता क्या हैं यह मन

लगता हैं

आजकल की

मेरा घर अब और कही नहीं

बस तुझमें ही हैं

कैसी यह दुविधा हैं

जो मन को घेरे हुए हैं

क्या सबके साथ ऐसे ही होता हैं??

Have you ever taken Langar ?

Last Sunday we were on a famous mission ...on which most of us are now a days ..."Diwali ki Safai" and as soon as I was done preparing lunch ..our gas cylinder was over ..I was glad lunch was prepared for both of us.

Husband was given the task to clean the kitchen.. washing floor n all...n I was doing room n clothes..

We were very tired and thought of Zomato for dinner.

But suddenly while taking bath he got an idea why not visit Bangla Sahib Gurudwara and have dinner in Cannaught place.

From a very long time it was on our bucket list..to visit Bangla Sahib Ji gurudwara.

We got ready and went there ..we both felt peaceful ...from within..sat for half an hour near kund.

We just had a discussion about langar ..what a great act by community.

Who and when langar was started n all was going on in our discussion.

Then we thought why not us experience this langar..in Bangla Sahib.

We went for it ...

Seriously..I was overwhelmed seeing people serving .. cleaning plated ..serving food.

On that day in langar ..we had the chance to taste the yummy kheer,Dal and roti.

I never liked kheer ...and black dal ..I don't know it's another name ..which my husband got at home but on never liked it.

But,on that day I felt it to be very tasty.

It gave the feeling which we might not have got in any restaurant.

Seriously,When you have langar you feel blessed and feel different kind of vibration..blessings.

Felt Grateful!!

This was my first experience of langar.

Inspite of visiting Gurudwara in Hyderabad and Jaipur ..I never had the opportunity of having langar.

Though we got our gas cylinder the very next morning but that feeling of langar was overwhelming.

It was an experience of which I was devoid for a very long time.

One must experience it once in their lifetime.

one must be open to learn from different faiths.

And keertan..I don't know what it is called exactly in Punjabi..helps you to be so peaceful.

You feel like keep on listening to them.

Langar ... waheguru ji ka Prasad 🙏

Waheguru da Khalsa waheguru di Fateh 

situations!

Sometimes Life puts you in such situations which makes you sure what you want in life .

It makes us to understand what kind of life you want and what kind of life you don't want.

True ...very very true that Time is the biggest teacher..which makes you ti understand what is need to be paid heed to and what not.

Being a women I have seen my mother going through the situation..in which I am today ..but I might not have understood it fully seeing her.

It's true that when we go through or experience the situation then only we can realise .. through what she has gone through.

Still in Indian families. ..bahu(daughter -in-law) is expected to be in the kitchen all the time .. breakfast.. lunch..dinner ...she is not allwoed to let her move her head upward..

Are we meant to be in kitchen all the time ??

Today ..this situation has thought me that I don't want this kind of life at all .. never...ever ...

Taking stand for yourself and setting boundaries is very important..not for society ...but for yourself.

If we don't teach our daughters this quality then they will suffer inside only.  ..

I am proud of myself that I have taken stand whenever it was needed..

And it keeps on reminding yourself to pat yourself than expecting it from others.

Self respect is more n more important than anything...any relationship.

Love 

Me.