New year 2024 !

As soon as I woke up phone was buzzing with WhatsApp messages..."Happy New Year"

"Welcome 2024"

"Jay shree Ram Happy New year".....and so many other lines....

If you look around every one ...every member of the house will be glued to their respective phones.

They are busy in wishing back and forwarding to their friends and others.

I was not aloof of it ...I was one of them ... suddenly I realised...

How an ideal new year celebration should be ??

Is this going out and partying with your friends?

Leaving parents ..who don't come from cool gen Z ...or who loves to party ??

All these questions were going on in my mind.

I was lost in a thought what will be the ideal way of celebration?

Can we keep calm at home ... sitting, relaxing, watching a movie with our family... throwing out phones aside to which we are so glued that we forget who is around us and all.

Aren't we so addicted to our phone ? Or we not so controlled by this device that we tend to forget or don't like our offline relationships...become dedicated to virtual relationship.

Sending virtual hugs and kisses instead of sitting calmly with family and loved ones ... rewinding our past year ... cherishing lessons and gifts of the going year.

Spending time with our family can be most valued... happiest kind of new year celebration 🎊

Wishing everyone Happy and Healthy New Year 2024 

दुविधा

जाना भी चाहु

पर तुझसे दुर भी न रह पाऊं

कैसी दुविधा हैं यह

वहा रह कर भी

तुझको ही देखना चाहु

कैसी दुविधा हैं यह

होती हूं पास तेरे तो

वहा जाना चाहु

आखिरकार घर हैं मेरा

जहा पली बढ़ी हूं में

पर लगता हैं मेरा कोई घर नहीं

न मैं यहां की हो पाऊं

न वहा की हो पाऊं

समझ नही आता

चाहता क्या हैं यह मन

लगता हैं

आजकल की

मेरा घर अब और कही नहीं

बस तुझमें ही हैं

कैसी यह दुविधा हैं

जो मन को घेरे हुए हैं

क्या सबके साथ ऐसे ही होता हैं??

Have you ever taken Langar ?

Last Sunday we were on a famous mission ...on which most of us are now a days ..."Diwali ki Safai" and as soon as I was done preparing lunch ..our gas cylinder was over ..I was glad lunch was prepared for both of us.

Husband was given the task to clean the kitchen.. washing floor n all...n I was doing room n clothes..

We were very tired and thought of Zomato for dinner.

But suddenly while taking bath he got an idea why not visit Bangla Sahib Gurudwara and have dinner in Cannaught place.

From a very long time it was on our bucket list..to visit Bangla Sahib Ji gurudwara.

We got ready and went there ..we both felt peaceful ...from within..sat for half an hour near kund.

We just had a discussion about langar ..what a great act by community.

Who and when langar was started n all was going on in our discussion.

Then we thought why not us experience this langar..in Bangla Sahib.

We went for it ...

Seriously..I was overwhelmed seeing people serving .. cleaning plated ..serving food.

On that day in langar ..we had the chance to taste the yummy kheer,Dal and roti.

I never liked kheer ...and black dal ..I don't know it's another name ..which my husband got at home but on never liked it.

But,on that day I felt it to be very tasty.

It gave the feeling which we might not have got in any restaurant.

Seriously,When you have langar you feel blessed and feel different kind of vibration..blessings.

Felt Grateful!!

This was my first experience of langar.

Inspite of visiting Gurudwara in Hyderabad and Jaipur ..I never had the opportunity of having langar.

Though we got our gas cylinder the very next morning but that feeling of langar was overwhelming.

It was an experience of which I was devoid for a very long time.

One must experience it once in their lifetime.

one must be open to learn from different faiths.

And keertan..I don't know what it is called exactly in Punjabi..helps you to be so peaceful.

You feel like keep on listening to them.

Langar ... waheguru ji ka Prasad 🙏

Waheguru da Khalsa waheguru di Fateh 

situations!

Sometimes Life puts you in such situations which makes you sure what you want in life .

It makes us to understand what kind of life you want and what kind of life you don't want.

True ...very very true that Time is the biggest teacher..which makes you ti understand what is need to be paid heed to and what not.

Being a women I have seen my mother going through the situation..in which I am today ..but I might not have understood it fully seeing her.

It's true that when we go through or experience the situation then only we can realise .. through what she has gone through.

Still in Indian families. ..bahu(daughter -in-law) is expected to be in the kitchen all the time .. breakfast.. lunch..dinner ...she is not allwoed to let her move her head upward..

Are we meant to be in kitchen all the time ??

Today ..this situation has thought me that I don't want this kind of life at all .. never...ever ...

Taking stand for yourself and setting boundaries is very important..not for society ...but for yourself.

If we don't teach our daughters this quality then they will suffer inside only.  ..

I am proud of myself that I have taken stand whenever it was needed..

And it keeps on reminding yourself to pat yourself than expecting it from others.

Self respect is more n more important than anything...any relationship.

Love 

Me.

pause

While watching a movie at home ..and we wants to go in between to get a cup of tea for ourselves what do we do ?

We press on the Pause button ..and start it again after our task is done. Why do we do so ?where is the need to press the pause button??

It's just because continuity of the movie should not be disturbed and we can enjoy each n every part of the story.

In the same way ..in life ..do we need to have a pause button?

Did you ever feel to have a pause button/phase in life ?

Pause phase ..when we do nothing..when we take a break from the routine life n give time to ourselves...when we think or plann for the future..or think upon what we want from our life.

Sometimes I feel in this life...which is running like a metro ..at very fast pace..in the blink of an eye .you may find that..you are now in your 40's and you will think upon the last moment you when you celebrated festival with your family without any office/business/ thoughts or work..we all make to be present at the family events..we may be physically present over there but not mentally.. . 

When was the last moment when you visited your native and tried to relinquish your childhood memory?

when was the last moment when you sat quietly and observed the movement of water in a lake or pond?

When was the last moment when you watched sunrise and sunset?

Don't we need a pause button before we start our journey toward 50's/60's/70's ??

with you !!

I know each and every one has to move forward for new innings of life ...for exploring new opportunities...I never knew that it would be so difficult to leave the place ...an organisation..which have given friends who can be called as prized possession for lifetime.

As I am approaching the d day ..every day it's difficult to control my emotions..I am gonna miss everything..which this place once I never liked to stay ...never knew would be giving such relationships.

A group which is the live example...which shows .. how we can make lemonade when life gives u lemon.

A group which is an example ... showing..when a woman supports another women..then world can be so amazing...life can be so funful. . learning new things together... standing in support of each other .. enjoying every bit of being a women.

A phase which is gonna have an impeccable mark on my heart n even on my sub conscious mind.

You guys are a proof of how life's one decision can be best decision... providing badass ...ladies ... friends for lifetime ❤️ 

I am now n Will always be grateful for this phase of my life...which has provided me crazy.. friends who can make u realise..how any situation can be made funful...lively...learnt many many things ..right now while writing this post ..it's been very very difficult..to type ..tears rolling down.

 I could not control my emotions whom to say how to say so had to write it down.

My life's one of the decision ever ..which provided me u all ... Grateful to God for u all ✨

Friendship Day !!

Started writing after a very long time ...today on the occasion of Friendship day..while looking at everyone's status..I went down the memory lane... thinking about crazily we used to celebrate friendship day's.

From

Searching for greeting cards ...for friends..and writing only famous lines ..

"THERE IS GOLDEN SHIP

THERE IS SILVER SHIP

BUT I LIKE ONLY FRIENDSHIP"

to

Getting scoldings from parents because you and your friends wantsvto see first show of Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara....Haha..ro rokar permission Lena ...then after watching it .. thinking ki yaar "apan bhi aise hi trip par jayenge jab jobs mil jayegi hum sabko " how crazy we were ..now in different corners of not only India but the world.

From 

Coordinating colour for the dresses...sending back if any of our group member don't abide by the plan.

When I did not wore the colour which was decided..how I was provided with the bike ... borrowed from a mutual's mutual friend from the Electronics group.

To crazily celebrating it by going for brunches...

Tying many many friendship bands ..n them clicking pics.

How time flies ..from greeting card era to now a gif...era of sending friend ship wishes ..in WhatsApp groups which have no Hulchul...from ages !!

Happy friendship day to everyone!

Always grateful for great people ...from school to college n till now..

Slowly as you grow up your mother becomes your bestest friend..she know every side of you..mother daughter after a certain age really becomes best friends for lifetime.

Jaswant:A person whom can be considered as my childhood friend..a person who is far but not so far..close to heart ..with whom I have experienced naive part of life.

FM..night gossips ..n many more ..moments shared can't be erased from memory.

Pallavi :

who was my automate

Benchmate

Tuition friend...to garba companion..

A person who is beautiful in and out ..a message away friend.

Pooja:

A person without whom my life may come to stand still ..both nakli Pooja and asli Pooja ..are part n parcel of my life...

Kalyani:

Person who can have solution forvall your problems...

Met for the first time in our Engineering Graphics class.

Mansa:

A person who gave me the name PPT...partner plus teacher ...my CSE..my partner in everything..from drinking to dancing.. chocolates...pulihora .. Biryani at her place ...movies ..novel stories...many many memories with her.

Vishnu Priya, Meenu,Swati,shruti,sushma,sindhu...n many others ...plz ping me if I have forgotten any of your names..you all are n have been an important part of my life.

Ankita Sharma:

How can I forget her ..any dilemma just go to her ..n she is the answer..

Sajjan kanwar: our guru ..my go to person.

Sweety purohit..who is as sweet her name..

And last but not the least ...

Nakli Pooja :

A person who is more than the asli Pooja ...it can summarise her importance in my life.

Back to Same life !

As soon as my holidays started from 20th ..I kept my tickets ready to fly back to my place on 21st without wasting any time just to live the moments with my family...a place where you can be "YOU".

Where you don't need to be in a certain way ..you don't need to follow any ethics of our so called society.

So today it's been 15days ..my heart is racing as soon as I get the thought that time is running and you need to back to that same den.

Why do we need to get married leaving our space ?

Can't we stay the way we were leaving earlier ?

In these fifteen days ..I felt as if I didn't get married and I am that same girl who was running here and there ...

Glad that got the chance to live the same way it was before marriage.

Getting up according to your time ..

Chai

Masti with Tommy

Doing all chores the way it was done before

Going here and there with mom dad

Everything seems to be same .

Always in pyjamas..

No bangles nothing

Stay the way you want 

Friends time 

Go wherever you wana go ..the way it was early

Uthai chaabi aur chal diye 

And what not ..many minute things which reminds me of everything ..

I am short of words .. actually I am not able to write it down what I am feeling right now ..

I wants to hold these moments..this time ..

Can't I move back to my same life ..??

Can't this life stay as it is ?

Why girls have to move out of this life ?

Rocket Boys!!

I really don't have patiences to sit and watch any series or videos on any topic. I can read for a long time about anything instead of watching something on the same topic.

But this series which I accidentally happened to open and was glued to such an extent that I had to take subscription of the respective app to continue with the series.

Its not that I am a fan of Astrophysics..cosmic rays ..or any sort of rocket science.

But I always find myself in awe of any personality..

I have always read about Vikram sarabhai..Homi Jahangir Bhabha ..and their dedication towards the great institution..they came up with.

While watching I felt like writing what I felt.

I might not have written much in this blog.

Sometimes we feel so inspired from some personalities that even you are popped with your dream of doing something big in your life.

From my college life ..I get so influenced by any personality..bossy personality..that I happen to order books written on them and explore Google baba to such an extent that my days goes in exploring about such individuals.

So in this list is the new members..Homi Bhabha and Vikram sarabhai..

This series have inspired me to keep my interest in reading in detail about different personalities like them and learn from their lives.

And yeh Jim's acting and his English..oh God He is too good !!

Run/दौड़

It's a very long time that  I have not written anything on my blog.

I don't even know where life is going ...feels stagnant..keeps asking my self questions..that.. is this is the kind of life I always wanted ??

If not 

Then 

What kind of life I wanted ...??

When I sit and try to manifest what I want from my life ...my path ends nowhere.

क्यू ?

क्यू यह मन तुझे चाहता हैं  इतना?

क्यू रहने के लिए तेरे संग इतनी मिन्नते करता हैं यह मन?

क्यू नही समझता यह मन

कितना भी समझाया इसको पर दिल हैं की मानता ही नही

क्यू यह मन तुझे चाहता हैं इतना?

क्यू?

क्यू रो रो कर किया हैं बुरा हाल तूने अपना

पता हैं तुझे सब

की रहना हैं तुझे उससे दूर ही

फिर भी

क्यू रहने के लिए तेरे संग इतनी मिन्नते करता है यह मन?

क्यू रोता हैं यह मन

कैसे समझाऊं इस मन को

कोई बताएं मुझे 

कैसे समझाऊं इसको

की जो यह चाहता हैं , हैं नहीं तेरे लिए

रहना हैं ऐसे ही किस्मत तेरी

मान लेगा तू जितनी जल्दी मिलेगा सुकून तुझे

उतनी  ही जल्दी

लगता हैं मन मेरा नही चाहता सुकून

इसीलिए रट लगाए बैठा हैं की

रहना हैं तेरे संग ही 

कोई बताएं मुझे कैसे समझाऊं इसको ?

क्यू यह मन इतना रोता हैं??

Piccredit: @ggoruvi on Instagram

stagnation!!

Image source : @dreamerscreed on Instagram.

Now a day life seems to be stagnant.

It's not there is no work. ..lot of work at the workplace as well as at home ..

But 

Don't know life seems to be going nowhere.

Such situations brings me back to the thought that ..is this the kind of life i wanted it for myself ?

What do I want from life ?

What to do so that this kind of stagnant stage doesn't come in life or arrive in life again ??

I tried to self interogate to find out what am i doing with life ?

Am i doing the things which has always given me the happiness, satisfaction i always carved for. 

Asked myself few questions

Am i reading books every day ?

Am i giving my "ME" time ??

Am i sitting quietly n enjoying the moment?when was the last when i sat holding tea cup in the hand and observed the moments of leaves?

When was the last time when i enjoyed the view of clear sky ?

When was the last time i was doing nothing?

When was the last time when i observed dogs playing ?

Birds chirping?

When ??

...

When  was that last time ?

Am i the only one who is facing this kind of stagnant phase ??

Does others also face such situations in life ?

This story is written for the season 3 of #storytellersbloghop, hosted by Ujjwal Mishra and Meenalsonal

Sunya se Shikhar!!

शिखर हूं शून्य पर खड़ा हूं

शून्य से लड़कर शिखर तक जाना हैं

 

'Dream is not that which you see while sleeping it is something that does not let you sleep"

      -Dr.A.P.J Abdul Kalam

Graduation Day and Grand Parents Day ..which was celebrated on 6th Feb 2023 at NHB,Pali.

Dr.Kalam who is known as Missile Man of India,we at Central tried to pay the tribute to him.. through various performances.

His life is an example for everyone..his life has shown us How one can move Zero to top in life ..His life is an example how determination,preserverance can take one from zero to top in life.

Central Academy institution is in its exemplary effort showing how one institute can grow by its determination.

"Grandparents are like magicians. They can create wonderful memories for their grandchildren out of thin air." 

Grandparents are blessings from God who are irreplaceable. 

They are angels in disguise who are always looking over their kids and grandkids. 

As the times are evolving, people are losing touch of their tradition. Likewise, people are not realizing the importance of Grandparents.

So we at Central Academy tried to show the gratitude towards them by organising Games, performance by their grand kids.

"Graduation  is not the end ,it's the new beginning"

Our little munchkins have been promoted to their new class ...so how can central academy do not celebrate it in grand way.

It was great honour for Central Academy to invite Padmasree Awardee Shri Arjun Singh Ji Shekhawat who need no introduction.

Then Lamp was Lightened up by our honourable guest, respected principal and Members of Board of Directors Mrs.Pallavi Mishra and Mrs Padma Ma'am.

Great Grand Parents are the most important guests of the this important day.

"हंस वाहिनी वीणा वादिनी जय हे माँ भगवती

सकल जगत को ज्ञान तू देती हे माँ सरस्वती"

It was followed by Saraswati Vandana. Goddess Saraswati .. Goddess of Knowledge!!

Welcome dance, Journey of Life, Childhood Dance, Certificate Distribution to all Prep Classes.

It was great joy to listen to our honorable guest.

Our Teachers from 9-12,were no less in celebrating the big day of little ones.They arranged games for our special guests..Great Grand Parents,Grand Parents.

Performances like Missile Success,Bomb Blast,Book Highlight,Fusion,Deep Shiksha,Shiv Tandav,Retro,Story before Satellite Launch and many others.

It was fun filled day in which teachers from all the wings of NHB and Naya Gaon took part enthusiastically.

Desire, when it stems from the heart and spirit, when it is pure and intense, possesses awesome electromagnetic energy. This energy is released into the ether each night, as the mind falls into the sleep state. Each morning it returns to the conscious state reinforced with the cosmic currents. That which has been imaged will surely and certainly be manifested. You can rely, young man, upon this ageless promise as surely as you can rely upon the eternally unbroken promise of sunrise... and of Spring.

                        APJ Abdul Kalam, Wings of Fire

Marriage👩‍❤️‍👨

On the other day i just sat ..and saw a post of one of my relative on Instagram..she got married recently on 26th Jan.

See ..inspite of being so busy ..kept all of us updated through her insta stories.

I was surprised..she could upload stories ..as in Indian weddings .. especially rajasthani weddings ..bride won't get time only ..many rituals ..n many other things..which may not let us to check insta ...or any of our social media accounts.

Seeing her stories ..a thought popped up in my mind.

what is marriage??

Is it wearing dulhan lehanga...or poshak .. jewellery..all taam jhaam..of wedding..or something..much much more than that.

It's a seven lives sacred relationship.

Real marriage starts after 1 or 2 months of wedding..when you really start living with each other ...that attraction period starts to decline..

After a little bit of experience what I could i understand from the word marriage is ..

Pampering 

Dealing with each other mood swings

Living with the person whose habits ..few of them may not be liked by u and vice versa..

Holding onto each other after ups and downs of life.

Loving each other the way u loved at very first sight in whatever condition you are ..even when you are in messy hair ..all messed up 

...

..

Many more ..

Many thoghts were running in to my mind ..when i planned to write on this..but ..now ..

Finding difficulty to recollect everything..

I can just say that ..

It's much much more than the ceremony of marriage..true marriage starts after you start living together.. it's  much more ...

Success!!

Success ??

🤔

What do we get in mind as soon as we hear this word?

Is success getting first rank .. always??

Is success .. getting full score in either in maths/science?

Is success..is to top the school/college/university?

..

..

..

Then what success is ??

I have always wondered about this word ..ran behind it to a great extent ..my mom knows how much i have irritated her .. whenever u lost in my Mysore SSB ,my attempts at UPSC..n at many levels .i always defined my potential.. whether i am successful or not based on my friends jobs.

My mom always tried to explain me the definition of success but it was all in vain..i never understood.

But 

I was always happy with what I was doing .. teaching..which was my passion and it will always be.

I always tend to forget every other thing else when i am teaching..i always feel happy n satisfactory ...no regrets that i didn't get in to services..i am happy and content..doing what i love the most.

Recently came across two of my colleagues..whose Daughter's study in the same classes..one is asking her daughter to pass in all the subjects and enjoy childhood...which she may loose in this illusionary world ..of hell of competition..her mother believes that if she have talent ..she will survive..she will do something or the other in her life..and the other keeps on imbibing in her daughter's mind that if you get full score/top on exams then you are successful.

I just sat and wondered again and my mind went on to wander again about the word success..

I tried to bring it back ..to my belief ..which my always made me to believe that "success is doing what u happy... forgetting to check your phone 😉.. enjoying what you do is success "

Rituals!!

Recently lost grand father of my husband..my husband was much closer to him.

When he informed me about it as i was at my mother's place ..i couldn't know what to say him ..how to console him.. sometimes we fall short of words at some situations.

I was in the same situation.

And after marriage i had the chance to attend ..pagri ki raat and other rituals (on 12th day )after demise.

I could see all these from near ..this time..few of the rituals which are carried for 12days ..they made my heart to cry .. दिल को दहलाने का काम किया ..we loose that particular person but rituals carrier out further put us in some vigorous situations.

In our community,ladies keep on crying(acting of crying.. shouting laudly).i have seen those who don't even know the person who is being lost.

Then on 12th day ..all the relatives from different places ..come together and cry all at a time ..

These rituals made me to think ..what is the condition of that person who is either wife/husband/daughter/son of the deceased person.

I don't know why am i writing this ?? I don't even know what to say ?? No words ..i am unable to tell my mind ..purpose/logic behind these rituals??