क्या महत्व होता त्योहारों का
कभी सोचा ही नहीं था
तुमसे मिलकर जाना
क्यों सजती हैं स्त्रियां
क्या होता हैं तीज का त्योहार
जाना अभी की सारा श्रृंगार
तुम्हारे लिए ही तो हैं
अभी सजना अच्छा इसीलिए लगता
हैं की तु हैं तो दिल धड़कता हैं
तू हैं तो साँस आती हैं
तू हैं तो सजना सवारना हैं
तू हैं तो त्योहारों की महक हैं
तू हैं तो मेहंदी की महक हैं
तू हैं तो पायल की छन छन हैं
तू हैं तो मेरा श्रृंगार हैं
तू हैं सब हैं
आज में हर रोज़ से थोड़ी जल्दी उठ गई
और बैठी तुमको निहारती
लग रहा था की
कल ही तो तुम आई हो हमारी ज़िंदगी में
परी बनकर एक बहुत ही प्यारी सी परी
जैसे सोनपरी आती थी फ्रूटी से मिलने
तुम्हारे आने की राह तकते थे हम
बहुत वक्त लगाया तुमने आने में
नौ महीने और ग्याराह दिन लगा दिया आने में
और जैसे ही तुम आई डॉक्टर ने कहा
सोनू देख तेरी नन्ही सी दोस्त आई हैं
अभी तक जो दर्द ट्यून सहा हैं सब
वाजिब था देख एक नज़र इसकी तरफ़
डॉ मैमूना ने कहा और तुझको दिख या मुझको
रूम के बाहर तुम्हारी नानीसा(मम्मी) खड़ी थी
तुम्हारे इंतिजार में मैमूना जी ने उनको गले से
लगाया गले से बोला बधाई हो
आपकी दोइती आई हैं
तुम्हारे पापा पंद्र की रात सोए ही नहीं
पहुचना जो था उनको तुम्हारे पास
तुम आई ९:४५ सुबह और तुम्हारे पापा
पहुच गए तुमसे मिलने १:३० बजे
कैसे कैसे पहुंचे वह तुम तक यह तो
जीव जानता हैं उनका
जैसे ही तुमको देखा आँखे भर आई उनकी
हमने जिस कुकरिए की कल्पना की थी
वह आज हमारे सामने थी
एक परी जो स्वर्ग से सीधे
हमारी ज़िंदगी में उतरी थी
और पलक झपकते ही १ साल
की भी होगयी
Today while doomscrolling I came across a Pune news where a person disguises a delivery person entered the home of a girl ,used spray to make her unconscious and raped her.He even took pics and left a chilling threat to come back.
After reading the post I got so scared that I became restless for few minutes.
And at the same time suddenly bell rang on asking who is there came to know that water can boy has come to deliver water bottles.
On Calling husband whether he has given order for water or not came to know that he has not ordered for today .
This sent a fear through my spine I calmed down myself and then opened the door took the bottles.
Took out Joseph murphy’s book on sub conscious mind and read few pages then decided to go to for shopping.we did a bit of shopping and then had dinner at one of my favourite Sambharpot.
Then we came home with love and laughter.I am trying to stay away from Instagram or any of the negative news by uninstalling Instagram.
Sometimes I feel too much of information at our finger tips is taking toll on our mental health.
Friday to Sunday we have been to our first trip as parents.
we have done earlier trips but this was the first with our baby.
when you travel with baby we have to plan a lot taking care of their every minute thing.
And this time we were travelling to mountain region so we were of thought that if we don’t find any particular thing which might be needed for her then how will be able to manage ??
so I made sure to keep everything handy.
we always believed in “Less Luggage more Comfort “and on every trip we opted for rented two wheeler and tried to cover the selected spots enjoying every moment.
With her we didn’t wanted to take any risk we had to look after her comfort.
so we left from Delhi by car and we had few more bags making sure to put everything needed for her .
From fruits,vegetables to homemade cerelacs so that she don’t get bored of eating same things.
Seriously after becoming parent we can’t pan anything according to our whims and wishes.our plans go according to their schedules.
Their sleeping time ,lunch ,dinner,snacks etc everything goes according to them.
Now we couldn’t leave the room by 8am to move around the place but happens everything at ease now according to their schedule.
Everything changes after you become parent.
Today I was leaving with my husband to his work city or the city where he works.
My in laws were saddened as well as happy as our daughter is going to stay with dad as well.
But there were tears as well.when a daughter in law stays with in laws they may be poked for some or the other potty issues but when she goes away tears rolls out.why ?
why can’t we stay happily respecting mutually.Here I mean to say mother in law respecting daughter in law as she does to her.
why not she accepted fully instead of partially as equivalent to her husband and sister in law??
when poking happens disturbing her mental peace why does not she move away from the toxic environment?
Doesn’t she deserve to have a happy life with her husband who stays away??
I dont know why I was feeling as if I am hurting everyone by going along with husband ??
Earlier whenever husband went back to his work city no one cried like this but why now ?
I have gone twice with my husband and I was left with the same feeling of hurting others by moving along with him.
Aren’t we Indian girls embedded with such values from our childhood??
why ?
when I have married him then why should I deserve to be staying along with him ?living life with him ? Living small moments with him ?
I am not able to understand anything right now what all sorts of emotions have been going on in my head and heart.
Am I the culprit to be moving away with husband ??
if yes why daughter staying with husband is right and daughter in law with husband hurts ??
There are many why goes on ..
when my baby sleeps I get the time to analyse the life .
I get the time to think upon life lately and in that my whole time goes off leaving me with the same dilemma and the same chaos in my mind.
Today while reading “Think and Grow Rich” by Napoleon Hill the book surrounds around the idea ,a determinant thought.
In the same way I was looking for an idea around which I can build my career again from scratch.But still clueless
That’s true saying from senior mothers(those who have exper Motherhood before me)that life starts from a scratch again after one becomes a mom.
Being a mom is a full time job but one though keeps on killing me from inside that what will I do after she starts going to school or turns to a manageable age.
Haha I even checked eligibility for various exams for which I may be eligible but in vains as I have crossed that age.
From dreaming to being an IAS to now seeing any job for I must be eligibile haha life shows u everything at once.
Does every mom faces the same dilemma??
will I be loosing interest in every thing about which I have dreamt??
when your Husband is away and he is very busy then how and with whom to share the thoughts??
may be my love for writing comes to my rescue!!
Is that Mom’s dreams go in vain ??
am I a failure ??
Does our Mom’s also faced the same situation??
#motherhood #motherhooddiaries #beingamom #momchild #career #dreamsofamom
Getting up along with my natural alarm my daughter at around 7-7:30am.
Finish Her chores within half an hour and the taking up on the duty as a. Daughter in law.
As a Indian daughter in law who stays with her in laws has to do all the taam-jhaar i.e wearing our traditional Rajputi poshak ,bindi,lipstick and bangles before leaving the room.
Handing over baby to either father in law or mother in law and then entering kitchen.
As soon as Indian women enters kitchen they loom with the question of what to be prepared for breakfast and lunch.
Gets free from kitchen by 10-10:30am and then again going back to motherly duties of taking care of her food ,washrooms, bath and other things .
I gets free around 2pm completing all my morning chores.
Again when I try to sleep in the afternoon she gets up and starts playing.
we leave our room by 6pm in the evening and again go for dinner preparation.
This way whole day is gone me wandering around her and her toys !
