Voice out

Today I happen to go for my baby’s Aadhar along with my father in law

I took all the documents handy as it was the first time for my baby to visit Aadhar Kendra for enrollment.

Something strange happened with me ..I was in my Rajouri dress I don’t know know why do I feel under confident when in Rajputi suit .

The operator guy was very cordial entering all the details ,took baby’s photo and entered all the details and made me go check every detail as well and gave me the receipt after submission.

As I was asking information if any issue happen with address in Aadhar then can I come and change it here and such other questions.He might have thought that I don’t know much about the process and he asked me for 100 rupees at last after form submission and I gave it without telling him that this service is free inspite I am being aware if the fact.

After coming back home I was self pity why did not said him no when I was aware of the rules.

I said everything to my father in law and mother in law and said I am going back to the Aadhar enrolment centre .

Matter is not of 100 rupees but my self respect and i was fooled and I went back and as soon I asked him why did he took amount from me he gave me back without resisting.

The I scolded him how can he make people fool and take money .

people are aware nowadays you can’t make them to pay for services which are free of cost.

This may be a small incident but for me it was something for which action needed to be taken .

#corruption #aadhar #enrollment #governmentservice

Me and my Time !!

Me time or my time

never knew its importance until I became mom.

Today got me time after very long time then I understood how much I was carving for this time.

Motherhood is a beautiful but we are also humans we tend to get tired of these motherly duties and yes of course wife duties and daughter in law duties.

So for women like me or I can say who are juggling in the same phase as me can understand how much we need this me time .

when I got this time today I am unable to think upon what I would like to do.

Before this I was like I wants to do this and this what not was going on in my mind but right now I am like just chill moment .

loosing track of things and have become so aloof of what’s going on in the world.

I dont even remember dates as well leave either world or country events …haha lol

I think I am just enjoying this outdated version of me -the version in which I am unaware of everything other than my baby .

Today thought to start writing again but what to write ?when ??

how to start ?

so many things going on

Hopefully I will find myself soon on the track I used to be

along with loving this beautiful creature’s naughtiness

As they say

“Me time is not a luxury but it’s a necessity “

प्यार ,तीज और त्यौहार

क्या महत्व होता त्योहारों का

कभी सोचा ही नहीं था

तुमसे मिलकर जाना

क्यों सजती हैं स्त्रियां

क्या होता हैं तीज का त्योहार

जाना अभी की सारा श्रृंगार

तुम्हारे लिए ही तो हैं

अभी सजना अच्छा इसीलिए लगता

हैं की तु हैं तो दिल धड़कता हैं

तू हैं तो साँस आती हैं

तू हैं तो सजना सवारना हैं

तू हैं तो त्योहारों की महक हैं

तू हैं तो मेहंदी की महक हैं

तू हैं तो पायल की छन छन हैं

तू हैं तो मेरा श्रृंगार हैं

तू हैं सब हैं

In a blink of an eye !!

आज में हर रोज़ से थोड़ी जल्दी उठ गई

और बैठी तुमको निहारती

लग रहा था की

कल ही तो तुम आई हो हमारी ज़िंदगी में

परी बनकर एक बहुत ही प्यारी सी परी

जैसे सोनपरी आती थी फ्रूटी से मिलने

तुम्हारे आने की राह तकते थे हम

बहुत वक्त लगाया तुमने आने में

नौ महीने और ग्याराह दिन लगा दिया आने में

और जैसे ही तुम आई डॉक्टर ने कहा

सोनू देख तेरी नन्ही सी दोस्त आई हैं

अभी तक जो दर्द ट्यून सहा हैं सब

वाजिब था देख एक नज़र इसकी तरफ़

डॉ मैमूना ने कहा और तुझको दिख या मुझको

रूम के बाहर तुम्हारी नानीसा(मम्मी) खड़ी थी

तुम्हारे इंतिजार में मैमूना जी ने उनको गले से

लगाया गले से बोला बधाई हो

आपकी दोइती आई हैं

तुम्हारे पापा पंद्र की रात सोए ही नहीं

पहुचना जो था उनको तुम्हारे पास

तुम आई ९:४५ सुबह और तुम्हारे पापा

पहुच गए तुमसे मिलने १:३० बजे

कैसे कैसे पहुंचे वह तुम तक यह तो

जीव जानता हैं उनका

जैसे ही तुमको देखा आँखे भर आई उनकी

हमने जिस कुकरिए की कल्पना की थी

वह आज हमारे सामने थी

एक परी जो स्वर्ग से सीधे

हमारी ज़िंदगी में उतरी थी

और पलक झपकते ही १ साल

की भी होगयी

Impact of social media on our mental Health !!!

Today while doomscrolling I came across a Pune news where a person disguises a delivery person entered the home of a girl ,used spray to make her unconscious and raped her.He even took pics and left a chilling threat to come back.

After reading the post I got so scared that I became restless for few minutes.

And at the same time suddenly bell rang on asking who is there came to know that water can boy has come to deliver water bottles.

On Calling husband whether he has given order for water or not came to know that he has not ordered for today .

This sent a fear through my spine I calmed down myself and then opened the door took the bottles.

Took out Joseph murphy’s book on sub conscious mind and read few pages then decided to go to for shopping.we did a bit of shopping and then had dinner at one of my favourite Sambharpot.

Then we came home with love and laughter.I am trying to stay away from Instagram or any of the negative news by uninstalling Instagram.

Sometimes I feel too much of information at our finger tips is taking toll on our mental health.

Her first trip 👼

Friday to Sunday we have been to our first trip as parents.

we have done earlier trips but this was the first with our baby.

when you travel with baby we have to plan a lot taking care of their every minute thing.

And this time we were travelling to mountain region so we were of thought that if we don’t find any particular thing which might be needed for her then how will be able to manage ??

so I made sure to keep everything handy.

we always believed in “Less Luggage more Comfort “and on every trip we opted for rented two wheeler and tried to cover the selected spots enjoying every moment.

With her we didn’t wanted to take any risk we had to look after her comfort.

so we left from Delhi by car and we had few more bags making sure to put everything needed for her .

From fruits,vegetables to homemade cerelacs so that she don’t get bored of eating same things.

Seriously after becoming parent we can’t pan anything according to our whims and wishes.our plans go according to their schedules.

Their sleeping time ,lunch ,dinner,snacks etc everything goes according to them.

Now we couldn’t leave the room by 8am to move around the place but happens everything at ease now according to their schedule.

Everything changes after you become parent.

Dilemma’s of being a daughter in law

Today I was leaving with my husband to his work city or the city where he works.

My in laws were saddened as well as happy as our daughter is going to stay with dad as well.

But there were tears as well.when a daughter in law stays with in laws they may be poked for some or the other potty issues but when she goes away tears rolls out.why ?

why can’t we stay happily respecting mutually.Here I mean to say mother in law respecting daughter in law as she does to her.

why not she accepted fully instead of partially as equivalent to her husband and sister in law??

when poking happens disturbing her mental peace why does not she move away from the toxic environment?

Doesn’t she deserve to have a happy life with her husband who stays away??

I dont know why I was feeling as if I am hurting everyone by going along with husband ??

Earlier whenever husband went back to his work city no one cried like this but why now ?

I have gone twice with my husband and I was left with the same feeling of hurting others by moving along with him.

Aren’t we Indian girls embedded with such values from our childhood??

why ?

when I have married him then why should I deserve to be staying along with him ?living life with him ? Living small moments with him ?

I am not able to understand anything right now what all sorts of emotions have been going on in my head and heart.

Am I the culprit to be moving away with husband ??

if yes why daughter staying with husband is right and daughter in law with husband hurts ??

There are many why goes on ..